When I'm lost in the abyss of life’s complexities, is it possible to use my own words as a vehicle for insight and write my way out on my own? Or, even better, can I harness my thoughts through writing to illuminate my path toward wisdom?

How can one write to light up their whole world?

I believe that words possess a unique power; they cannot only convey ideas but also unravel the threads of understanding that are tangled inside our own minds. With the refinement of insights into tangible wisdom, one can transform life’s challenges into valuable lessons.

However, I wonder whether my lifelong curiosity has equipped me with enough knowledge to draw upon in difficult times?

Have I sharpened my ability to articulate thoughts to the point where they can serve as tools for my next actions, let alone as beacons navigating difficult times?

Do I possess enough grit to dig deep and polish insights into gold nuggets that I can utilize? Have I clarified my words enough to transform them into wisdom for life?

With each word I write, I want to believe that my experiences and reflections can be distilled into my own guiding principles—to find my way whenever I feel lost—and become the author of my life philosophy.

I also truly want to believe I'm halfway there, with the pen—and sometimes keyboard— as my compass, and it’s entirely up to me to write my way out of the darkness.

So I keep on writing.

Writing is a journey of discovery, you won’t know what will emerge on the page until you put the words down. Writing is like digging into your mind; you only see what’s truly inside once you start to excavate and examine it for yourself.

No one—not even you—knows exactly how your current writing session will unfold until it’s complete. We can only perceive what’s in front of us, line by line. Each line you write is a step into the unknown, revealing insights and connections that only become clear as the page fills. In this process, the act of writing becomes an exploration, guiding you down paths you might not have anticipated at the start. It’s not until the page is filled that you begin to understand your entire thought process and where it leads.

Often, our visions are not as expansive as we might believe at first. We either jump to conclusions without seeing the entire path, or focus on our next step without a clear destination in sight. What’s truly remarkable is our ability as humans to switch between long-term and short-term thinking so swiftly, through the act of writing. We can have a general idea of what lies ahead—whether it be a destination or a final conclusion—while also possessing the skill to determine the kind of path and words that will take us there. This dynamic interplay of thought is what makes the writing process not just an act of creation, but an exercise in clarity. Embracing our ability to visualize and actualize empowers us.

I am grateful to live with a brilliant mind filled with potential. The only thing left is to see it through: write it down, walk toward the ending, and materialize everything on the page. As long as I make time to think, I can navigate this world, even in the darkest times. I have the ability to illuminate my surroundings and continuously uncover new sources of light within the tunnel of my own mind.

So, seize the reflective moment; think deeply, write boldly, and let the process reveal the treasures waiting within you—so you can go out there to live with a clearer mind!

The song "Oblivion" by Bastille has always held a special place in my heart since its release. 

When you fall asleep with your head upon my shoulder  
When you're in my arms but you've gone somewhere deeper  
Are you going to age with grace?  
Are you going to age without mistakes?  
Are you going to age with grace?  
Or only to wake and hide your face?  
When oblivion is calling out your name  
You always take it further than I ever can  
When you play it hard and I try to follow you there  
It's not about control, but I turn back when I see where you go  
Are you going to age with grace?  
Are you going to leave a path to trace?  
When oblivion is calling out your name  
You always take it further than I ever can  
When oblivion is calling out your name  
You always take it further than I ever can

When the song was first released, I was just a teenager who wasn't proficient in English, as it wasn't my native language.

Initially, I was captivated by its haunting melody and emotional depth. Still, it wasn't until I recently witnessed my grandma’s battle for her life that I grasped its lyrics' profound meaning.

Watching my grandma's memories fade in and out due to dementia, and seeing her ability to speak slowly deteriorate all at once, I finally understood that the song is not about a romantic relationship coming to an end, but about the profound pain of watching someone fade away before your eyes.

The song is not just about someone leaving; it's also about the inability to help that person. You thought that person was not only going down the wrong path but that they were going to leave this world if they kept going like this.

Viewing the song through the lens of dementia added layers of complexity and emotion to it. You're sensing the dread from knowing they are going to forget everything from our shared world, a world filled with memories of us.

You try so hard to make them remember, but they only slip away further.

You hope to see them live with some grace, even though you know their deterioration is inevitable.

You try to pull them back into the present moment, but they are on the other side of oblivion, a place where you cannot reach no matter how hard you try to keep up.

The haunting lyrics of the song encapsulate the desperation to hold onto memories, to keep a connection alive, and the crushing realization that some things are beyond our control.

The song took on a different and deeper meaning when viewed this way. And I couldn't help but be in tears.